So yeah, here's a new one. I've thinking over it a lot. And, where am I? Nowhere. Because, forgetting all the memories of the past 3 years are not easy to forget, rather not possible for me. Future. I've always heard a lot, think about your future, study, how'll you get a job? But this time, it all changed, completely. Thinking about OUR future. I cannot really say anything about it, but yes I know, its very much possible, if there is commitment from both the sides involved.! In the 21st century, mindsets, people and the world have definitely changed a lot. For me everything has. My life seems kind of empty, everything I do, related to the one person. I throw something in the dustbin, yeah I remember saying " I'll throw the gift in the dustbin!", when I see a cat, I remember the cute little gift I got, when I talk about love. Its JUST the one person, and flashbacks do not stop, they just don't. I must actually thank her for what she's made me. A good person, away from all the crap of Alcoholic drinks and stuff, I really do. :) However, I don't want it to end. Cos deep down, even she knows, that staying apart? Dude you kidding me? :) 3 Years, and there's been this bond, this addiction , which cannot separate us. And I also know things have not changed, they never will. You know why? Cos if there is attachment from only one side too, Love exists :) It does. I wont act like the others going around defaming her, or talking crap, I will wait, and that's what I have finally decided. I will wait. She'll be back. EVERY SINGLE person who knows about it, says yes, its meant to be. See it in the eyes. There is a hell lot of pressure on her , I suppose. Moms trust. Yeah, its important but there is something called Personal Life? Which nobody would tell you not to have. All the parents go through the same stages of love too, and its right. I still keep the first Rose I got with me, all the chocolates, the teddy, just to remind me - Aman, its a bad phase, bad time, bad luck, but she's gonna return soon :) Few friends also support me, but right now I'm all alone, and I have to keep struggling on the battlefield of Love. I know. There is one thing I've learnt since childhood, and it kind of runs in my blood now - Never Give Up. Because only I know, how special this relationship is, how we've spent time together, laughed, cried, reminiscing about everything. Its gonna be good, I just hope and she realizes. Which she will, pretty soon :) Einstein :* Its just a tough phase, and there's gonna be an end to it. No matter how much we ignore it, its ultimately troubling in the form of memories, and ultimately.- yeah :) Back together. Cos even she cannot deny the fact she needs me, I need her, and yes there was love. Still is :)
I'm just waiting. And I will keep on ... I got a lot of time. :p Only for her, though. The day she comes back into my arms, that's the day, the real Aman will be back ;) Cos for now, a part of me is lost, far away, and I'm in search for it :)
Bhagwaan Ji, aap usse waapas le aoge na? :) I love you.
